That says alot....

Writers, especially poets, are particularly prone to madness. There exists a striking association between creativity and manic depression. Why are more creative people prone to madness? They have more than average amounts of energies and abilities to see things in a fresh and original way--then because they also have depression, I think they're more in touch with human suffering.

Funny thing is.... I had this poem published in "An Eternity of Bliss" in 2001. 
That says a lot I think......

Written about the OKC bombing April 1995.....

Sprinkles of Gray

Sprinkles of gray that cover over me...

won't lay to rest, the black of darkness

won't come to pass.

Dark circles in my mind

the light that flashes bright...

Can't hide the fog of disaster

in the words that love might.

Phases of laughter that's loud and painful,

sees the gray on my soul

touches me gently,

turning it to gold.

Moist tears that fall from my eyes

to be replaced by happy times...

and gray filled days shall come to pass

with no bitter lies

Vitamin D

Something is bothering me. I haven't figured out what it is.  I am not at all happy with it though, and if I could just pin point what it was I would purge it from my existance!  I am going to go sit outside and soak in some sun.  Maybe that is what I need.  Good old vitamin D!

Thoughts will come.....

So, I am having a NEW experience with an old subject.  Seems to be the theme of my life lately.  I am sure I will find my nitch... But I will reserve this subject for a later date... when I have had time to gather my thoughts... and when I don't care one way or another if I have to piss someone off to voice them... right now the verdict is still out.

Planting a garden

We have started our landscaping and we knew this would be years in the making.... but this is a costly adventure.  Maybe my taste runs high! lol  We bought the bricks....  We bought the dirt.  We bought the flowers... It ads up!  We have more flowers to plant... but it is too windy so we are tucking them away until the wind chills out!  Then we will finish it up.
I saw a fountain that I like and hope to ad that to my garden next summer.  One day we will have created our own little Oasis... (hopefully).

Verizon vs AT&T

It is time to get a new phone..... I hate to make decisions that have to last for 2 years!!!!  Why can't I buy a phone (CHEAPER) and not have to sell my soul to the devil.  A 2 year contract???  Lots can happen in 2 years.  You can have a baby and a half in two years!!!  That is a whole human life being formed!!!! What if I have bad service, and the calls drop all the time?  Or what if the phone starts pooping out on me?   What if I move to China or get hit by a bus or struck by lightning???  UGH! Then there is the matter of the phone itself....  Too many to choose from and I want hi-tech without being complicated!  So now what?