The calm before the storm.....

 

I am anxious to see where my thoughts take me...

Anxious to see where I land...

The boat that is overturned, slightly

and lays on a white stretch of sand.

Through the tall trees of Paradise

I can almost grasp a vine

But the earth beneath my feet turns fast

and soon I am running out of time.

Gravity pulls against me,

but I am to remain free to reclaim the life that I was born

And to get others ready

For the calm before the storm.

Proud of my girl

This week is Miss Oklahoma week in Tulsa at the Mabee center.  One year ago, I lived in a hotel with my family and endured this week.  It was stressful, hot and costly!  BUT, I was very proud of my daughter.  How many people can say their daughter had earned the right to be in the Miss Oklahoma Pageant.  Especially when we have NEVER done pageants.  This is a picture of her during that week.  But I am soo soo so glad we arent there THIS year! lol

That says alot....

Writers, especially poets, are particularly prone to madness. There exists a striking association between creativity and manic depression. Why are more creative people prone to madness? They have more than average amounts of energies and abilities to see things in a fresh and original way--then because they also have depression, I think they're more in touch with human suffering.

Funny thing is.... I had this poem published in "An Eternity of Bliss" in 2001. 
That says a lot I think......

Written about the OKC bombing April 1995.....

Sprinkles of Gray

Sprinkles of gray that cover over me...

won't lay to rest, the black of darkness

won't come to pass.

Dark circles in my mind

the light that flashes bright...

Can't hide the fog of disaster

in the words that love might.

Phases of laughter that's loud and painful,

sees the gray on my soul

touches me gently,

turning it to gold.

Moist tears that fall from my eyes

to be replaced by happy times...

and gray filled days shall come to pass

with no bitter lies

Vitamin D

Something is bothering me. I haven't figured out what it is.  I am not at all happy with it though, and if I could just pin point what it was I would purge it from my existance!  I am going to go sit outside and soak in some sun.  Maybe that is what I need.  Good old vitamin D!

Thoughts will come.....

So, I am having a NEW experience with an old subject.  Seems to be the theme of my life lately.  I am sure I will find my nitch... But I will reserve this subject for a later date... when I have had time to gather my thoughts... and when I don't care one way or another if I have to piss someone off to voice them... right now the verdict is still out.