July 20, 2012

Cranky Old Man.....


 

What do you see nurses? . . .. . .What do you see?
What are you thinking .. . when you're looking at me?
A cranky old man, . . . . . .not very wise,
Uncertain of habit .. . . . . . . .. with faraway eyes?
Who dribbles his food .. . ... . . and makes no reply.
When you say in a loud voice . .'I do wish you'd try!'
Who seems not to notice . . .the things that you do.
And forever is losing . . . . . .. . . A sock or shoe?
Who, resisting or not . . . ... lets you do as you will,
With bathing and feeding . . . .The long day to fill?
Is that what you're thinking?. .Is that what you see?
Then open your eyes, nurse .you're not looking at me.
I'll tell you who I am . . . . .. As I sit here so still,
As I do at your bidding, .. . . . as I eat at your will.
I'm a small child of Ten . .with a father and mother,
Brothers and sisters .. . . .. . who love one another
A young boy of Sixteen . . . .. with wings on his feet
Dreaming that soon now . . .. . . a lover he'll meet.
A groom soon at Twenty . . . ..my heart gives a leap.
Remembering, the vows .. .. .that I promised to keep.
At Twenty-Five, now . . . . .I have young of my own.
Who need me to guide . . . And a secure happy home.
A man of Thirty . .. . . . . My young now grown fast,
Bound to each other . . .. With ties that should last.
At Forty, my young sons .. .have grown and are gone,
But my woman is beside me . . to see I don't mourn.
At Fifty, once more, .. ...Babies play 'round my knee,
Again, we know children . . . . My loved one and me.
Dark days are upon me . . . . My wife is now dead.
I look at the future ... . . . . I shudder with dread.
For my young are all rearing .. . . young of their own.
And I think of the years . . . And the love that I've known.
I'm now an old man . . . . . . .. and nature is cruel.
It's jest to make old age . . . . . . . look like a fool.
The body, it crumbles .. .. . grace and vigour, depart.
There is now a stone . . . where I once had a heart.
But inside this old carcass . A young man still dwells,
And now and again . . . . . my battered heart swells
I remember the joys . . . . .. . I remember the pain.
And I'm loving and living . . . . . . . life over again.
I think of the years, all too few . . .. gone too fast.
And accept the stark fact . . . that nothing can last.
So open your eyes, people .. . . . .. . . open and see.
Not a cranky old man .
Look closer . . . . see .. .. . .. .... . ME!!

July 19, 2012

Where is the Limit?

This is a true statement.  But when does reality kick in.  You want your children to succeed in all that they try.  In all that they want to do,  dream to do, ATTEMPT to do... but at some point it has nothing to do with ability, education or self-esteem... but with reality. 
How do you allow anyone that you love to place themselves on a destructive path just for the sake of a dream.  How do you allow anyone you love to make choices that will end with regret and with discontentment.  As a parent, I was always my kids biggest fan.  I wanted my children to be in everything and to to enjoy it all.  I remember telling my oldest son that his life couldnt' be all about football and sports, so I made him (and yes I use the word MADE correctly) be in a play.  I also bought him a quitar and encourage music.  Point is, I didn't want my kids to put it all in one basket!  Self Esteem is important, but so is teaching reality.  So is teaching them that they can do anything they want, but because of powers beyond their control they might not achieve those goals and need to have a back up plan.... or make new goals. 
I am reminded of all the awards that kids get in sports today.  Everyone gets an award cause no one needs to feel left out. Am I wrong in thinking that we as parents need to keep it real so our kids aren't looking at thier future like it is owed to them?  I worry about that. 

July 16, 2012

Butterfly

My heart is heavy for a family I know tonight.  Such saddeness should not have to be endured from a mother, a father, brothers and sisters or grandparents. Parents should not have to lose a child.  The order of life should be in stone. 


A butterfly lights beside us like a sunbeam
And for a brief moment its glory
and beauty belong to our world
But then it flies again
And though we wish it could have stayed . . .
We feel lucky to have seen it.

July 15, 2012

Many Faces of Me

Running into People you know....

Use to,  I couldn't go anywhere without running into 20 people I knew.  Sometimes it would take me hours to run errands because of this. Not that I didn't love to run into my friends or chat it up... cause I love to chat it up! But it caused me to forget stuff and it took me for ever to catch up to my day.

When we moved to OKC, I didn't have that problem.  At first it was nice to go somewhere and get my stuff done without the distractions. And I saved time and rarely forgot to get something cause my mind was on task. 

In the last week I have ran into one person who I never thought I would run into again in my life... Like literally of all the people to run into... that was freaky!  I ran walked into Hobby Lobby and saw a fried from Guymon at the check out. Then I ran into 2 different people I knew from Yukon at Target and another person at 7-11.

Friday, we went to see the Baseball game in Bricktown.  *side note* Not as exciting as watching NBA action or nowhere near the noise level in the OKC THUNDER arena, but still lots of fun in the great outdoors! 

We sat on the lawn at first where I devoured a hot dog (no baseball game is complete without a dog) and saw a cool firework show behind right field after the game.  As we leave, I hear my name... which is odd... not my name -  just hearing it in a crowd in OKC.. so I turn around to see a Shelly... a friend from Guymon!  We visit for a minute and then after we say our goodbyes, I hear my name again... which is even MORE odd, because this is twice now... it was one of my co workers from YHS!  We gave a hug, introduced spouses, talked shop and then went about our way. 

I like starting to run into friends again.