Big Annoucement!

We are opening a Daycare in September!  So that means I am either out of my mind or a glutten for punishment!  Either way... it's happening.  I am excited and nervous!  Ready and NOT ready all at the same time!  The architect and I went over some last minute things, and now comes the blue prints.  First order of business was to get my L.L.C Papers and to name it.  The name is A Child's Garden.  WHICH is what I wanted to name my other daycare but couldn't because it was already an existing business in Edmond.  (A greenhouse business) This summer I get to buy TOYS!  I have missed buying toys!!! lol

I have been working on the website and it is killing me! lol  I am trying to make sure all bases are covered, T's are crossed and i's dotted.  I want to give enough information, but not overwhelm them or confuse anyone. I am very picky and it never seems quite right!  It'll get there.

I have enjoyed the last three years off from daycare, but truth be told, I always missed it.  It's just where I belong.   I thought when I sold my other one that I would have the feeling of a huge weight off my chest.  I never felt that.  I did feel alot of regret!  Weird!  I have done a lot of growing over the last three years and alot of reflecting.  And I have always worked.... I thought being a stay home mom for Matthews high school years would be where it was at... NOT!  I can't sit home!  Depression sets in! 

I think I can definitely hone in on where my weaknesses where in my other center and not have the weaknesses in this one.  Keeping business separate from friendships will be hard, but I know it is a must.

Count down

I have 19 days left of work then then I am off until September!!!!! WOOT WOOT!    Been a long rough year health wise.  I am hoping I am getting stronger!

Not Cool this 3 a.m.!

I woke up at 3:00 a.m.  3:00!!!!  What happens at 3:00 a.m that I needed to be wide away for?!?  Nothing that's what!  I roll over that make sure I have an "A-OKAY" text from Katie saying she was at home, in bed and safe.  then I notice my sister left me a message, so I write her back... next thing I know we are having an entire conversation!  For like one hour! 

I never did go back to sleep, though I should get an A for EFFORT!  I tossed and turned and tried new pillows.  I did really well all day though, kept busy and did my job.... now that I am home I am fighting sleep!  I really don't want to waste my evening time off sleeping so I am struggling.  I would rather sleep at work!

Therapy comes in all forms.....

I have a lot of pinned up anger.... I can see why.  I understand why.  I am trying to control my words, but  I seriously might explode.  Fever blister, stress, anxiety.... yeah I fear my up coming blogs might upset some people.   Life is short... and I am not going to shorten mine by keeping anger bottled up to spare feelings of those that put me in this state.  Therapy comes in all forms.  Mines called blogging.  Watch out.

Not really feeling it.

We have two performances left with GREASE.  I am ready to get it done.  Not just because of how this crazy and ODD experience has effected me, but because I have other important things going on in my life that I need to make 1st priority.

Not sure I will ever direct another play.  Think that part of my life is over. I have been very successful at directing plays.  I have always managed to get great plays that people want to come watch.  But going to another town 15 miles from home to a theatre... and it taking up so many nights a week and it being so much work, and the feeling of swimming upstream for 8 weeks is not my idea of feeding your passion. 

Although I am use to being behind the scenes.. and prefer it actually... I have never felt so isolated.  There is a loop in that theatre, and I was never let into it, and because of that, I feel the final project suffered for it. 

But, Stars were born!  And I am sure they will continue to shine somewhere, even if it isn't at that theatre.  Altough I have met some pretty cool cats, I'm ready for it to be wrapped up!