I am here... but just barely!

While I was gone and not really blogging like I use to, some stuff went down!  Now you know it is something major cause I LOVE to write and blog, if for no other reason then to print it out and keep it for my journal.  When I am dead, my great grands will think "SEXY" was a cool grandma! (that is what I want my grands to call me, and I can't for the LIFE of me understand why my children are refusing to let them refer to me that way! LOL

First of all I have been sick.  And not the cold, runny nose, achy kind of sick.  But the OMG I am going to die cause I have a disease kind of sick, called LPR They say stress causes my illness... and I was thinking, I am not under stress!  I sold my daycare 2 years ago.  Everything else is a piece of cake! Right? 

Well.... then I got to thinking about my last six months.  And here it is in a nut shell.  Still new to the town, not many friends, so some depression had set in... then my Dad passed away in November, so I worry for my mom all the time.
I worry for all my kids.  All the time. And that will never end.
I was going to open another Daycare, then I wasn't, then I was, then I wasn't.... well you get the gist of THAT scenario.  While at the table making plans to open a center the phone rings, it is YHS asking me to come for an interview.  I go, get the job (JOB OF MY DREAMS btw) and of course I am nervous for the entire month after he hires me before I start.
Then I have one sister that couldnt'sell her house and she has had health issues for years and so has her husband.  Then my other sisters husband had to have heart surgery.
Then my mom started  having mini strokes... which I took her to the doctor and over a course of the summer, actually 5 months, we got her a home health nurse and got her blood pressure down, but I was trying to go up there for 2 days a week to take care of her and help her with shopping and laundry. 
Then she just had a pace maker put in. I just worry for her all the time!! 
THEN,  Matthew had a wreck, and it wasn't a kind wreck.  It was a mean- in your face- type of wreck that totalled his car in the parking lot of his school!  And he had a nice car.  Body shop stopped the estimate at $13,000!  Yes in the parking lot where he was doing the normal speed, but the driver of the other car was clocked at doing 45mph.  It was on tape and the cops and the insurance guy told me the estimated speed.  Can you say T-BONE?  Then say Hospital, and minor concussion!  So I guess I can see why I might have gotten sick.  And I sure hope I am on the road to recovery cause I almost had to put myself out of misery a couple of times!  Oi vay! 

But I do have to put in a side note that my husband has been with me through all of this and loves me very much and for him.... I am so lucky and greatful! 

I have a chicken bone in my throat!

Well, having GERD has always been a part of my life, but this chicken bone stuck sideways is a new twist and it SUCKS!  Let me say that if you are on any PPI's please watch for signs of LPR.  I think I might be healing some, besides the chicken bone of course, and for that I am grateful.  I know I like to eat some crazy stuff... but after not being able to eat anything that I know how to cook for 2 months and losing about 16 lbs... I am starting to develop some love for new types of food.  It has forced me to eat different things that I haven't tried before and I have to say.... there are some good stuff out there!!!  At any rate, I have my good days and my bad days.  Bad days consist of the chicken bone in  my throat.  Okay so the whole chicken bone thing might be a little dramatic, but LPR does suck until you get it under control.  And getting it under control takes a long time... I am on month 3.  I still have some issues to over come... but I am determined!

The Nonsense that I Can't Live Without

 Okay! So I have no idea why I wanted this Rooster. I was shopping with Katie and saw this on the shelf and for some reason, which I still can't explain, I could not get it in my shopping cart fast enough!  I just knew that lady behind me was ogling it and it was the only one!  I wasn't taking any chances that she would get it. 
Dennis isn't sure why I needed it or why I insist on calling it Henry, but I did and I do! So ladies and gentlemen, allow me to introduce you to my new kitchen decor, Henry!

T- Boned Car

 

Matthew totalled his car! :(  He was going to go out for lunch and he and a friend were going to drive over to her car to get a notebook out of her car.  The whole wreck is on tape.  He is traveling down the driving part of the parking lot and turns to go to her car with another car slams into his car... TBONE style.  The insurance company said her speed was 45mph.  The passenger in the other car went by ambulance to the hospital and I took Matthew.  We met Dennis up there and got him fixed up.  He had a MRI and made sure there was no bleeding or swelling to go with his head ache.  He throw up in the parking lot and that only confirmed what the doctor told us.  He had a minor concussion and we had to just watch him for 24 hours. 

Feeling Pewny SUCKS!

Man!  I have not been feeling good at all since July 1.  I have been to 4 doctors, a chiropractor, an ENT and a gastroenterologist.  I have had a rubber hose up my nose, and down my throat.... I have had an endoscope.  I have had an ultra sound and I have been on rounds of antibotics, steriods, and PPI's.  I have had a diagnoses of PLR and then told I did not have that by the Dr that did and read my scope. I am scheduled for a CT scan on Monday to check for stones. And I have been told to get a second opinion with another ENT.  Prayers are appreciated!  I am just ready to get back to normal... or my normal anyway.