That Extra Day I had with my Daddy

It has been a year since I have seen my Daddy and that is the longest... by far... I have ever gone in my whole life without seeing him.  It feels like yesterday, yet a life time ago, if that is even possible. 

He had been put in the hospital and I was going so I could not only see my dad, but also help my mom with him or give her a break once we got him home.  Tanner went with me and we sat in his hospital room as he joked and visited with us.  The hospital is across from the college football stadium and looking out the window, I could see the bright lights where my old high school was playing the big game of the season LHS vs IKE.  Daddy teased me about when I was in high school and he would pick me up from the game, ironically in the hospital parking lot... as me and my friend would get into the car he would ask me who won...to which I would reply.. "I don't know!"  He would then laugh and accuse me of "boy watching" instead of watching the game!


The next day (saturday)  he was waiting to be released.  He was adamant about the OU game being on and he wanted to be out before it started or he wanted them to wait until it was over!  It took forever for them to release him and as usual.. he didn't complain.. just watched the ball game with Tanner and a friend... Bill, that had come to see him.  Once we left he wanted to go by Sonic and get a vanilla shake and then we followed them to Cyril. 

I  had thought about going home after we got him back from the hospital and settled in.  I had helped my mom and everything was in order.  I asked Tanner what he wanted to do, and as usual he was supportive in whatever I wanted to do.  Because they took so long to release him, and we got home later in the evening, I decided to stay another night. 

That precious last night I spent with my daddy was something ... I will never forget.  Tanner tried to talk him into playing aggravation, but he didn't feel like playing.  So, I gave him a foot massage.  I had printed out a Chinese foot chart and I massaged both his feet and worked extra hard on the part of his foot that is connected to his lungs.  He relaxed with his eyes closed and told me how wonderful it felt.  I bet I messaged him for well over an hour as we just talked and teased each other.  I got his coffee ready for the next morning and cleaned his tray where he liked to have his snacks.  I made sure he was covered when he went to sleep and I gave him a kiss. 

The next day I made breakfast, and we visited at the table and laughed just like always.  As noon approached, I gave both of them a hug & kiss goodbye, but when Tanner an I were sitting in the truck, I got teary eyed and I told Tanner... this might be the last time I see him.  Tanner, of course was like... "Oh Mom!  It is not!"  But I think I knew in my heart that it was.  It took everything I had to back out of the drive way.  It was the last time I saw him.

Who says "0" is not a size!

Oh man!  I like shopping at Maurice's!  I am a size 0 there!  And THAT is too big!  How cool is it to shop at a store and be too big for a size 0?!?!  It might be my new hang out.  I am not joking.  This was a total boost of instant confidence for me.  I bought 3 shirts and I am not even sure I like them! 

I have beef jerky in my night stand

My daughter brought be beef jerky from Guymon a month ago.  I haven't been able to eat it yet cause of my whole GERD situation.  Which sucks cause I really... really... REALLY like No Mans Land Beef Jerky -  and to know it is there, unopened  kills me!  I also think my dogs know it's there.  They stand on my side of the bed with their nose twitching, and anytime I go in there, they run and follow like I might just open it and drop some, or better yet, SHARE it with them... yeah like that will happen! 

So I tell my husband that if he would like some, since I can't eat it now, he can take some to work.... and he eats the WHOLE bag!  smh....

Sleeping Beauty vs The Blood Hound

I could not find Katie on Sunday.  She did not answer her house phone or her cell.  She did not reply to texts or facebook either.  So after an hour of no reply on any electronics, I decided to go to her house.  She would not answer her door.  But her car was there and her purse was in the front seat.  So I pound on the door harder and manage to set off a nice sound of dog harmony in the surrounding apartments.  Still no answer.  So I go to the office... but wait it doesn't open for 2 hours.  I was not going to wait!  So I get a hold of the security people, who get a hold of the cops.  Long story short.  If your mom is looking for you, you better let her find you! 

She was sleeping.  I was not leaving until I knew she was safe!  We spent the day together.... shopping, eating and laughing! 

Sleeping beauty 0 The Blood Hound 1

I am here... but just barely!

While I was gone and not really blogging like I use to, some stuff went down!  Now you know it is something major cause I LOVE to write and blog, if for no other reason then to print it out and keep it for my journal.  When I am dead, my great grands will think "SEXY" was a cool grandma! (that is what I want my grands to call me, and I can't for the LIFE of me understand why my children are refusing to let them refer to me that way! LOL

First of all I have been sick.  And not the cold, runny nose, achy kind of sick.  But the OMG I am going to die cause I have a disease kind of sick, called LPR They say stress causes my illness... and I was thinking, I am not under stress!  I sold my daycare 2 years ago.  Everything else is a piece of cake! Right? 

Well.... then I got to thinking about my last six months.  And here it is in a nut shell.  Still new to the town, not many friends, so some depression had set in... then my Dad passed away in November, so I worry for my mom all the time.
I worry for all my kids.  All the time. And that will never end.
I was going to open another Daycare, then I wasn't, then I was, then I wasn't.... well you get the gist of THAT scenario.  While at the table making plans to open a center the phone rings, it is YHS asking me to come for an interview.  I go, get the job (JOB OF MY DREAMS btw) and of course I am nervous for the entire month after he hires me before I start.
Then I have one sister that couldnt'sell her house and she has had health issues for years and so has her husband.  Then my other sisters husband had to have heart surgery.
Then my mom started  having mini strokes... which I took her to the doctor and over a course of the summer, actually 5 months, we got her a home health nurse and got her blood pressure down, but I was trying to go up there for 2 days a week to take care of her and help her with shopping and laundry. 
Then she just had a pace maker put in. I just worry for her all the time!! 
THEN,  Matthew had a wreck, and it wasn't a kind wreck.  It was a mean- in your face- type of wreck that totalled his car in the parking lot of his school!  And he had a nice car.  Body shop stopped the estimate at $13,000!  Yes in the parking lot where he was doing the normal speed, but the driver of the other car was clocked at doing 45mph.  It was on tape and the cops and the insurance guy told me the estimated speed.  Can you say T-BONE?  Then say Hospital, and minor concussion!  So I guess I can see why I might have gotten sick.  And I sure hope I am on the road to recovery cause I almost had to put myself out of misery a couple of times!  Oi vay! 

But I do have to put in a side note that my husband has been with me through all of this and loves me very much and for him.... I am so lucky and greatful!