I’m not forgetful!!

Omg I just realized why I don’t inform  people until the last minute about things going on…. I don’t think about it cause it’s not my nature to be gossiping!  This is mind blowing to me. 

Wakely came and stayed with us over the weekend and said her nose was running off her face! LOL  

In sickness and in health they weren’t kidding

It’s really easy to take these vows when you’re young and vibrant.  Your whole life in front of you and you’ve got health and stamina muscle tone. Last couple years have been hard on me healthwise …not anything major but very trying. First I had LPR which is burning of the esophagus where is Spinctor doesn’t wanna work … let’s heart burn go up your throat and burns your voice box.  No more signing for me.  I lost and entire octave of notes.  Hurts!!  lost about 20 lbs during that process so that was a plus

2nd thing was Vertigo!  Practically all of 2018 but I think I’ve got it kind of mapped out a little bit and then if I get a vertigo episode.  I kind of know what to do and I don’t freak out as bad. I had PTSD from it though.  

Then menopause hits and I’m like we’re gonna try hormone replacement therapy.  I don’t think that was a very good idea because after I went to the pellet my uterine lining went from what is supposed to be which is 4 mm to 11.6 mm. So they had to do a DNC and in the process that somethings going on with my uterus,  my bladder goes to shit!  It’s the most painful thing I’ve ever gone through including childbirth.  

Dennis has been nothing but supportive through everything I’ve had. I think it’s important that when you’re young and dumb and getting married you should remember that these vows mean something and I would not have made it through these last few weeks without Dennis. I feel sorry for those who don’t have this because I really don’t know how to survived. 

For everything there is a season

Because you have a big group of friends when your little you think you always need that. In reality, once you get married and start a family,  there is not much time left for that type of friends. 

I often wonder where my big group of friends went.  And how I enjoyed them.  But then realize I realize I replaced them with my kids.  I am investing in my own future when I am with my family.

I could easily have friends over, eating, drinking, gossiping ... but it takes lots of work to keep in a friends circle,  and frankly you open yourself up to being stepped on and taken advantage of.  The truth is, I don’t want to deal with their problems when I don’t have my own. 

I’d rather watch Netflix. 

I see single moms with group friends and then I see neglected kids.  **Friendships if not proportioned correctly once you have kids can destroy the family unit.**

For everything there is a season.  The season for a big group of friends is in your childhood. 

In the old days

This is an aerial shot of the house I grew up in and my elementary school.  This is the distance I would walk by myself s a little girl. I didn’t walk with friends.. I walked alone most of the time. I walk home for lunch and back too. Our neighborhood was right by Ft Sill and a main Gate plus two Main Streets in a military town that was so big we had 26 elements schools, 4 junior highs, 3 high schools and a college. 

I remember walking home and looking up at the green trees against a blue sky without a care in the world. I remember telling myself to remember those days cause I knew at some point I’d grow up.  

I was a scaridy cat… but never really thought to be scared to walk by myself to and from school at such a young age. Sure couldn’t do it now.