Raven Vs The WILD

As of now I'm hunting flies in my house.  We have to let the dogs out to take care of business, but we always let in flies.  Nasty buggers!  I have on a hat... backwards I might add... and a seriously large,  thick, black fly swatter.  I have tracked down, located and killed 3 so far.  They are hard to find.. they blend in to their surroundings.  My computer is black.  My printer is black.  My file cabinet is black.  Even my kitchen counters have black in therm.... it's like they are little chameleons!  And they are fast!  One minute they are talking crap in your ear and the next they are by the window 10 ft away.  They just disappear... they are like super ninja flies!  If they could operate nun chucks, we would be the endangered species!!!   I am tempted to find Matthew's old night vision goggles from his spy kit. I am not taking prisoners.  No one gets out alive!!!  I am bigger!  Stronger!! and I pay the bills!!!! So RIP super stealth ninja flies! Victory shall be mine!!!!

I'm feeling creative with nothing to write about... that can mean trouble!

My thoughts for today....

It's all in who you know....

Being new to Yukon I don't know many people.  I have met some great people and I have met some... not so great people.  But that is the way of any town.  Mostly, Yukon is amazing and an extremely wonderful place to live.  I have been meeting some people that "know people".. but I didn't know that at the time.  now turns out that it is a good thing that not only do I know them... but they liked me! lol  So now I have some connections... And connections are always good to have. 

The Working Man!

Matthew got a job at the new outlet Mall and LOVES it?  Can you believe it?  I mean he really likes the work.  He has unloaded a huge semi... one that was bigger then another other one there or one that he has ever seen before in his life!!!!  ... I might add. lol And he has unboxed tons of boxes of clothes, purses, wallets and sunglasses.  He has set up shelves and organized merchandise!  He is so excited and has been working 8 - 5 helping get the store ready for the grand opening next coming weekend.  He has been going to bed by 10 and is up and running around the neighborhood at 6:30.  He is trying to get in shape for track too.  I am so proud of him.  he gets paid every two weeks and already has spent his first check... that he doesn't even get until Next week.... several times!!! He is going to go to his brothers bank on Friday and set up an account and get a debit card.  I can't wait until he realizes how fast money goes!    He is growing up fast!

This is Realistic Art

This is what happens to those Christians that are hypocritical...  better watch your step! 

Oh Snap!!!  You don't mess with someone that has a can full of bug spray!

Which one is real?

With the heat these days... this looks GREAT!!

Where are the Flats?!?!

DUDE!  Why can't I find cute flats?!?!  I went to several places today to find cute flats and there was NONE!  All the cute shoes have heels!  I can't wear heels, I am tall enough.  So if anyone out there knows where I can get cute little shoes PLEASE TELL ME! 

Welcome to Oklahoma!!!!

Ambitious or Never Satisfied?

“Most people would succeed in small things if they were not troubled with great ambitions.”
- Henry Wadsworth Longfellow

Ambition is the desire for personal achievement. It provides the motivation and determination necessary to achieve goals in life. Ambitious people seek to be the best at what they choose to do for attainment, power, or superiority.

My husband and I argue over this topic all the time.  He would still have the same furniture he had when I met him 17 years ago if I had never pushed the issue of getting new stuff.  He has a great job and is a great worker - making it through 2 lay offs even when a bunch of his friends didn't.  He has worked for the same company for over 20 years... but he never applies for higher positions.  He doesn't want the added responsiblities.  I am highly ambitious.  I am always striving to do more, have better, be better.  He thinks I am never satisfied with what I have.  So it got me to wondering... was I not? 

I look back at my life and think how happy I was at 12 when I graduated from the 6th grade and got a new yellow Sunflower bike with a banana seat and a white basket.  Man that was a beautiful bike!  I rode that all around the neighborhood for the entire summer!  But would I had been happy with that at 16 when I got my license?  I mean it was transportation, and it would get me from point A to point B.... Does that make me not happy with what I had, because now I wanted a car?  No!  I was ecstatic to get that bike!  But at 12 bikes are enough.  At 16... you want more... you DESIRE more.  Is that not being satisfied or is it ambition?

So then, it stands to reason that one is never fully satisfied.  I mean, if people were content with things in their lives, they would never try to better themselves, right? 

My question is, if you don't want to live your life being simply satisfied with whatever you have... that you want to have better things in your life... is that ambition or are you never happy?  At any rate... time marches on, and with it so do my desires.  Just having a bike wasn't enough for me.   I will always continue to outgrow things and want to move forward to always better myself and my surroundings.  Does that make me ambitious, or never satisfied?

Just wanted to throw this out there......

Going to church doesn't make you a Christian any more than standing in a garage makes you a car. 

Nakey Boy!!

I got beautiful flowers today.  They were from my parents and the card read, "To my very own Cinderella! We love you, Mom and Dad."  I was not at home when they were delivered.  Matthew was taking out the trash in his underwear when they were delivered and got caught outside and couldn't get back in to answer the door because he was hiding.  He ran to the back yard but the back door was locked but he could see the lady was waiting at the front door so he ran back around the side door and slipped back into the garage to get into the kitchen so he could throw on some clothes and answer the door!  He was out of breath and apologized to the lady telling her he didn't really want to answer the door in his underwear!  He says from now own he wears shorts to run out the trash!  lol 

Rock On This!

It's been 9 months since I sold my business and at first, I really missed it.  Now I am so glad I don't have it anymore.  Truth is I was thinking about selling it even while living there.  With moving it was a "no brainer" to sell it.  Public schools are fixing to really cripple some daycares with having all day pre K.  It doesn't pay to watch babies and the younger they are the lower the ratios are... so there won't be much money in it anymore.  I am so glad I don't have to stress about attendance.  Some daycares will make it, but some will not. There just won't be a need for as many as there is and only the strong, fun and updated will cut the mustard. 

I am ready to work far away from daycare and it's craziness.  People don't realize all the pettiness of it. I am soooo enjoying being at home though, I may never go back to work, unless it is something fantasically 'me'!  And for someone that will appreciate my creativity instead of wanting to change - but never letting go of anything!  What a waste of time... to have someone that can really make a difference and be afraid to let anything go!  PROCRASTINATION -  I tell ya, is a SIN! Oh well.... years from now things will rock the same and I will still be fabulous at my creativity and my ideas will move forward, while some people do the same thing/different day.  Power to the creative people!!!  We ROCK the universe... if not own it!

Ali Bear

I went to Cyril this week to help my parents out with a few things.  While I was there, I went to Lawton to meet my new neice, Ali Robertson.  She was just precious and she LOVES me!!!  Look at that pretty smile!  I was telling her how beautiful she was. 

Why do we pay tolls???

Right Verdict, Wrong Trial

Explain to me how it is that Casey Anthony got an innocent verdict and Jerome Jay Ersland was found guilty and got life in prison???  How missed up is that?  How can they convict someone who was defending himself, his employees and his inventory?  He did not plan that attack and he was not a threat to anyone.  Those losers came into his store with the intent to steel and possibly harm him.  They got what was coming to them.  Maybe the fact that he reloaded was a little extreme... but when you have military training and that kind of fear mixed together... you just react!  I think I would react the same way especially if I was protecting my family.  I think the jurors that were in this case should have been on the Anthony trial and the ones on the Anthony trail should have been on this case.  It seems very missed up! What is this world coming to that you can't defend yourself?    How Ridiculous!!!

Life in the Country

I love being at my parents house.  I love the country!!!!  Yesterday we were driving back to the house from Anadarko  and there was a skunk on the front porch!!  We had to wait for him to leave before we could get out of the car.  He comes every night... I think he likes Matthew.  There is a creek behind my parents house and I have heard owls, seen snake skins and freaky bugs, as Matthew calls them.  We are just helping doing things around the house and Matthew has really been working hard. We have painted the den and reorganized shelves.  We have dusted and vacumned.  Matthew has cleaned gutters and trimmed a tree off the roof.  He put salt in the water softner in the well house and dumped two truck loads of trash.  He swept out the garage and helped clean out the pee trap for the A/C.  We have enjoyed stories and looking at albums.  Tomorrow I get to see one of my oldest and favorite friends and her kids.  I am excited to share some gossip and eat a meal with her!  So I will be going home soon to see Dennis who is holding down the fort.  I hope he cleaned the house... cause I will need a vacation when I get home! lol

Okay.... so, I think I am a hippy!

Not the drug doing, none bathing, free sex and naming my children Moonbeam, Happiness or Rain kind of hippy... but one of free thinking, rationalizing things differently, and wanting everyone to get along... kind of hippy.
I don't like the madness of the world.  I don't like the constant need that everyone has to have it their way because that is the ONLY way and if you don't do it that way, you are WRONG.  Do you know how many ways you can get from my house to say.... California?  SOOOO many ways.  None of them the WRONG way.  Some are a better way then others.  Some of them are shorter then others.. but they will all get me there.  Why can't people just find their own way to places and enjoy the company of those along the way.  Why do we have to argue fuss and complain about our differences?  I love to have friends that are different.  I call them the "spice"!  They add some flavor to my existence and I think it helps with my journey.  And we are all on a journey so why not just kick back and enjoy the ride.  Love everyone that comes into your life.  See if there is something that not only they can contribute to you, but that you can contribute to them.  And remember, there are a lot of different ways to reach the same place.

Do you feel Lucky?

T-Shirt War

Attitude Check

You are not the center of everyone’s universe.  You need to remember that the world will not revolve around you.  You might have something happen to you that is important or traumatic or life changing, but that does not mean that it will affect other people in your life the same way.  You cannot expect people to always be your salvation.  You need to developed your own strength and not condemn those around you who are living their own lives. It makes you look sad and very self absorbed.  It also cause alienation from people that could or would otherwise be best used for other areas in your life.  So no, the world does not revolve around you, and the sooner you get that in life… the better you will survive it!

Being a child at home alone in the summer is a high-risk occupation. If you call your mother at work thirteen times an hour, she can hurt you.

Hurt ~ by Johnny Cash

I hurt myself today

To see if I still feel

I focus on the pain

The only thing that's real

The needle tears a hole

The old familiar sting

Try to kill it all away

But I remember, everything

What have I become

My sweetest friend

Everyone I know,

goes away

In the end

And you could have it all

My empire of dirt

I will let you down

I will make you hurt

I wear this crown of thorns

Upon my liar's chair

Full of broken thoughts

I cannot repair

Beneath the stains of time

The feelings disappear

You are someone else

I am still right here

What have I become

My sweetest friend

Everyone I know

goes away

In the end

And you could have it all

My empire of dirt

I will let you down

I will make you hurt

If I could start again

A million miles away

I would keep myself

I would find a way

Love this!!! Music make a difference

I am such a night owl.  I hate that.  I wish I was a morning person.  Up with the crack of dawn and watch the sun rise while listening to the birds.  But my creativity doesn't recognize that time of day, and even if I get up that early, I sit around like a slug.  We recently bought a patio table and I have really enjoyed sitting there when I do get up with a cup of joe and my computer. Maybe soon I will find my creative side again and start up on another story!

This goes with my theme of my last 2 posts.  It's all about my mood, man... and today this is it!

I'm more confused than a chameleon in a bowl of fruit loops :~)

Living Under the Radar

Does it make me selfish that I like to live under the radar?  To live and let live?  I try to find the goodness in people and if I don't see it,  I just move on.  I don't try to make them feel bad about it or of who they are. I dont' try to change them... I just simply... move on.
I don't like to be bothered or inconvenienced  by other people. But isn't that a norm?  I have my own issues and my own problems.  They might not seem as big as yours, but they are bigger to me because they are my issues and my problems and it seems to me that if I am busy taking care of your issues and problems then who will take care of mine? 
Sometimes you have to be selfish because some people will try to suck you dry.  They need to sap all the strength you have to offer and even then, it still won't be enough.  Life is too short for me to have to worry about if other people are making the right decisions.  I have to make sure every decision I make is the right one for me.  So does that make me selfish that I like to live under the radar?

Karma is Not Fickle

So the unpopular verdic of NOT GUILTY was found today in the Casey Anthony case.  While listening I really thought it would be GUILTY... and was shocked that it wasn't on at least one felony account.  I think it is sad that if she did commit these crimes or have knowledge of it that she was not convicted.  I know our court system isn't perfect, but we put into place a system with a judge and a jury of our peers so that we can give everyone a fair trail.  Yet when the outcome isn't what we as a society thinks it should be we start in on opinons and on cursing the jurors or calling them stupid.  Some people are even hoping her life is horrible!  Who are these people?  It is frustrating to me really becauses no one knows for sure what happened. 

Pushing this case aside.. whatever happened to once you served your time you got to start over?  So many people can't find jobs after prison and are practically forced back into a life a crime just to survive.  And then there are the ones like Casey where once you are found not guilty, you are still considered guilty and treated as an outcast.  We would like to think our society is civilized, but it takes me back to the witch hunt days where one person declared another a witch and the entire town would rally around to burn them with little else but a mock trial.  People are cruel and unforgiving.  A court room is for Justice not revenge. 

Karma is not fickle...

Either he is really thirsty or it is a poorly thought out suicide attempt! lol

No Cussing and No Sex

Matthew is turning over a new leaf!  He no longers cusses or allows those around him to cuss and he told me today while taking him to White Water that he "needed to get a purity ring A.S.A.P before he had sex!!!"  I thought I would wreck from laughing so hard.

Matthew's Home

So glad to have Matthew, A.K.A Chandler, back home from Falls Creek.  He was extremely tired and ready to, and I quote, "Take a shower in his OWN shower!  Sleep in his OWN bed! And eat Chick f'la!"  He left on Monday with two suit cases of clean clothes and $100.00 in his wallet. I get lots of text from him throughout the week, but on Wednesday, he is ready for me to come get him.  On Thursday, he never wants to come home.  On Friday he has no clean clothes left and on Saturday he is Starving to death and has $1.00 to his name. What did he spend $100.00 on his dad asked.  "Icies!"  Matthew said.

When we go to pick him up, he drags to the truck after saying goodbye to like 800 friends.  We take him to Chick f'la and order him not just one #1, but two...  #1's... which is $15 worth of chicken and make sure he got "lots of ranch and lots of BBQ sauce."  We come into the house and he swears our house has a new house smell and everything looked different.  (nothing was different).  He even thought we had planted some new trees!!!  Sitting there, at the table he begins to dig into his meal(s)  at this point he is making some serious smacking noises!  His dad asked him to bring all his dirty clothes to the laundry room so, Matthew, a.k.a. Chandler, stuffs another piece, or three, of chicken in his mouth while he goes to get his suitcases.  Bringing them to the laundry room he dumps BOTH suitcases in the floor and walks away.  Dennis looks at the mound of clothes and spies his two pair of still folded swim trunks and asks... "Did you swim?"  Matthew who has gone back to the table to finish scarfing down his food mumbles something inaudible that sounded like. "No."  When Dennis went to pick out the swim trunks, Matthew corrected himself. "Well, wait... I fell in the lake, so I sorta went swimming... but I had on my regular clothes." and he went back to eating his food.  After he finished off both #1 meals, he climbed onto his bed and fell asleep face down for 4 hours.  So blessed to still have a kid in the house!

Beware of the half truths....  you may have the wrong half!

Where's the Love

After finishing the shopping at Walmart today, we are wheeling the buggy out to our car when Dennis hops on the back and says, "Push me!" So I grab the cart and start hurdling him towards one of those big red poles they have to keep cars from running into the doors. Well, Dennis did not think that was funny! He said, "Hey! You almost ran me into one of those poles!" I smiled and said, "I know! I was aiming for it." Well he didn't appreciate that.... And he wouldn't let me push him anymore either. He said, "I have too good of life insurance to let you push me around in a buggy!" lol Where's the love??

Oh look... My exhusbands are still waiting for their ride

Silent Lucidity LIVE performance

This is one of my favorite songs!!! Plus how hot is a guy sitting on a stage singing!!! His range is pretty amazing too! Yummy!!! Heavy metal Band that plays with an orchrastra of strings and tops it off with a ballet that plays the theme from the traditional Brahms' Lullaby. AMAZING song!