Not Cool this 3 a.m.!

I woke up at 3:00 a.m.  3:00!!!!  What happens at 3:00 a.m that I needed to be wide away for?!?  Nothing that's what!  I roll over that make sure I have an "A-OKAY" text from Katie saying she was at home, in bed and safe.  then I notice my sister left me a message, so I write her back... next thing I know we are having an entire conversation!  For like one hour! 

I never did go back to sleep, though I should get an A for EFFORT!  I tossed and turned and tried new pillows.  I did really well all day though, kept busy and did my job.... now that I am home I am fighting sleep!  I really don't want to waste my evening time off sleeping so I am struggling.  I would rather sleep at work!

Therapy comes in all forms.....

I have a lot of pinned up anger.... I can see why.  I understand why.  I am trying to control my words, but  I seriously might explode.  Fever blister, stress, anxiety.... yeah I fear my up coming blogs might upset some people.   Life is short... and I am not going to shorten mine by keeping anger bottled up to spare feelings of those that put me in this state.  Therapy comes in all forms.  Mines called blogging.  Watch out.

Not really feeling it.

We have two performances left with GREASE.  I am ready to get it done.  Not just because of how this crazy and ODD experience has effected me, but because I have other important things going on in my life that I need to make 1st priority.

Not sure I will ever direct another play.  Think that part of my life is over. I have been very successful at directing plays.  I have always managed to get great plays that people want to come watch.  But going to another town 15 miles from home to a theatre... and it taking up so many nights a week and it being so much work, and the feeling of swimming upstream for 8 weeks is not my idea of feeding your passion. 

Although I am use to being behind the scenes.. and prefer it actually... I have never felt so isolated.  There is a loop in that theatre, and I was never let into it, and because of that, I feel the final project suffered for it. 

But, Stars were born!  And I am sure they will continue to shine somewhere, even if it isn't at that theatre.  Altough I have met some pretty cool cats, I'm ready for it to be wrapped up!

4 Blogs in March?  That's ridiculous!  27 in January and 4 in March!!! Where am I putting all my creativeness???  Oh yeah!  GREASE!

I Blinked and Missed Spring Break!!!

Why is it a normal week of work, staying busy and responsibilities drags by but a week off to catch up on fun things goes so fast you never feel like you actually had a break!?  I kept very busy for the week, doing lots of different things.  First off, we had play practice 8 days during spring break, so it's safe to say that I worked on Play stuff alot of the time.  I also worked on some daycare stuff, Taxes, returned phone calls, cleaned house, and went to see my mom for a couple of days.  I have come to one conclusion and that is.... I have to no idea how I have time to work!!! :)

My sleeping pattern changed and therefore, today... on my first day back, I am exhausted!  I cleared up my crafts for the play last night and was in bed by 10:15... HOWEVER, I did not fall asleep until 3:00!  Getting up at 6:00 is going to make this a long day!  The only comforting thought with that is most of the people I have talked to are in the same boat! I hate being such a night owl!  I even got up early so I would be sleepy enough to go to bed early, but my mistake was relaxing in my bed with Dennis and Matthew while watching a movie and we all fell asleep!  I woke up to find even both dogs in the bed with us... UGH!

Well, I have 10 weeks of work ahead.  I hope I can get my routine back on!  Here's to June 7!!!!!!