Sad Good-bye

My day was filled with storing away my Christmas decorations. It's always a little bittersweet when I have to put away my beautiful trees. This year, though, I really didn't want to take them down. They were perfectly placed and added such a lovely glow to different parts of my home. There was a tree in the entryway, dining room, and even our bedroom. Every corner had a festive touch! The only upside to putting everything away is the extra cleaning that comes with it.

Here' to 2024..... She better be good to me! (Tina Turner)

My blog helps me fight off my inner demons. While I could keep a private journal hidden away, I choose to share my thoughts in the hope that they might offer solace to others facing similar struggles. Sometimes, just knowing you're not alone can make all the difference. Online support groups are everywhere, but there's something special about reading someone's thoughts, especially when they resonate with your own. Each of my posts is fueled by a unique mix of emotions, experiences, and outcomes. Being at this stage in life is uncharted territory for me, with all the ups and downs it entails. It can be tough and amazing at the same time – it all depends on the day!

Good bye 2023

Today marks the end of 2023, a year that has flown by in the blink of an eye. It's astonishing how time passes so quickly. It feels like just yesterday I was a carefree 8-year-old with a set bedtime, and yet that was 50 years ago. It seems as though I have experienced multiple lifetimes within a single lifetime - from my adolescence to my teenage years, from young adulthood to motherhood, and now, here I am, a grandmother to 11. Each phase of my life has been a mix of blessings and bittersweet memories. I find myself missing it all.

But now, I recognize the need to graciously let go of what no longer serves me and be open to the possibilities that lie ahead. As we welcome the New Year, the tradition is to leave the past behind and embrace the new. However, it's important to note that this process involves reflecting on our past, acknowledging our imperfections, and striving to become a better version of ourselves. For my part, I have committed to a 365-day calendar of positive thinking. Yesterday's mantra was "if it makes you happy, do it!" It encourages us not to overthink our choices, whether they be small steps or giant leaps. As long as they are leading us in the right direction, they are worth taking.

With the clear intention of personal growth and a positive mindset, I am ready to embark on this new chapter and see where it takes me.

I spent some time with Matthew this weekend and he said the funniest thing to me.. but one that made me think: 

Matthew: what if we had some cataclysmic catastrophe and the entire population was wiped out… then years later the earth began to populate again and they found a Harry Potter book and thought our god was a wizard and people use to fly on brooms?!?

I laughed way too hard at that!

Today, like every day, Dennis asked me if there was something he could do for me. 

Me:  you could mail these for me.  I was going to yesterday but I didn’t have time.

Dennis: well give me your keys.  I hate going to the post office it’s like all the traffic…..

Me: I know!  You have said it 100 times!

Dennis: well I need to make sure you know I’m not happy about it