My Candle Burns at Both Ends

As many people are doing... I am trying to accomplish what I can during the shut down. But I am also trying to take time to rest when it is time to rest.  Going 90 to nothing and not allowing my body to rest during a stressful time could backfire.

I would love to have a time to close and just sit back and find some no stress days.  Dennis could manage all the bills for the rest of my life... the reason I work is beyond me.  My  "wants" are a little bit out of his realm probably.

At any rate, using some quieter time to reflect on what needs to be done and set some priorities is a great way to start. 

We changed the hours at the daycare and I have to tell you.  I LOVE the new hours! I want to keep them!  Unfortunately, I have always considered what my clients want above my own wants.  But 7:30 to 5:30 is floating my boat!

No good side to Covid19

I saw that the crime rate in every city has gone way down.  I am happy to hear that.  But Schools are closed... so..... of course no school shootings.  Churches either!  That's a definite win. But soon we will hear of riots and looting.  (It's coming)  Have you seen the cars in the drive through lines at fast food? 40 minute wait time.  People can't find meat... everyone is picking up and bringing it home. Sonic is making a killing!  So is Walmart and Lowes!  I would gladly pay $6.00 a gallon for gas if it puts families back to work!  

Ben was laid off yesterday.  and even though that has NOTHING to do with COvid19,  It's very frustrating that Russia and Saudi Arabia when Russia failed to deepen an existing  production cut of 1.8 million barrels a day.   As far as family goes.... I haven't seen my mother in 6 weeks.  It's like this is stealing what could be her last months from us. We weren't able to spend Easter together as a family either. I thrive on schedules and so do people with mental illnesses.  Depression is setting in on several people, especially those that live alone.  

Domestic and child Abuse is up and so is drinking.  Glad they left those liquor stores open! lol  People are not showering or washing their hair (Many are buzzing it off) and if you watch Tic Toc they will tell you they are wearing the same clothes from last tuesday! lol 

However... I am saving money!!!  Which is good cause I am not making much after I pay all my overhead to run an essential business during a pandemic! (Not all bills are being deferred)  I personally know of 14 nurses and there are hundreds more that got laid off work just last week because elective surgeries are canceled and that is the type of work they do in the hospital.  Many are stressed out single moms and unemployment does not cover the cost of their bills.  (Nurses bank it!)  Also deaconess hospital  in okc closed last week because they are not making money because elective surgeries are not being done. That's 313 beds and that's hundreds of jobs lost.  They do not have plans to reopen, possibly a buy out but nothing set in stone.  

I love that doctors are being praised more then hollywood people! Now if they would just quit posting videos trying to be famous on tic toc like hollywood people... with balloons as their asses and acting like they are sailing on the titanic, and care for dying patients, find a cure or a vaccine.. that would be time well spent!   

This slow down thing that God wants us to do..  would have been a great idea had it lasted for 2 /3 weeks and he made sure we all had tickets to our bucket list vacation spot!  

This is going to be bad.  Not slowing down... Dead Stopping.  Ruining lives.  Ruining futures.   

Staying positive is not an option.  Staying afloat may not be... with  millions of people receiving unemployment  that will eventually run out (which it does in about 5 months, possibly sooner since so many are collecting) and 1 job for every 500 people to compete for, assuming that over a half open back up businesses.

No good side to Covid19.

It's Time!

This covid19 going on... many people want to continue staying in and have just made themselves sick with stress and worry.  I think we need to get back to work.  I think life needs to continue.  I think the government has helped out with all he can... now it's up to us to get it going again.

People have literally been living off of savings, or with parents or off the government for 2 months now.  Lots of things are getting done in the houses and spending time with kids.  But it's time to get back to work!  I can't believe the people that don't understand basic Economy 101. 

Well, I don't care

I do alot of thinking when I make the bed.  And on Sundays when I change the sheets it takes longer and I thinker harder... so today I thought about aging and if it is effecting my compassion.  After much reflecting I think what is effecting my compassion is stupid people that expect shit for free. 

People that don't want to work but get paid, people that think their problems are everyone else's problems.  These are the ones that are affecting my compassion.  I have little faith in people doing the right thing now a days.  And I know that use to, I would worry about friends and people in general, but as I get older I realize that some of these people are in the positions they are in because they are stupid. 

Does that make me a bad person or a good observer?  I see a guy begging for money on the street, I think they should apply for jobs.  I work for my money....