I am here... but just barely!

While I was gone and not really blogging like I use to, some stuff went down!  Now you know it is something major cause I LOVE to write and blog, if for no other reason then to print it out and keep it for my journal.  When I am dead, my great grands will think "SEXY" was a cool grandma! (that is what I want my grands to call me, and I can't for the LIFE of me understand why my children are refusing to let them refer to me that way! LOL

First of all I have been sick.  And not the cold, runny nose, achy kind of sick.  But the OMG I am going to die cause I have a disease kind of sick, called LPR They say stress causes my illness... and I was thinking, I am not under stress!  I sold my daycare 2 years ago.  Everything else is a piece of cake! Right? 

Well.... then I got to thinking about my last six months.  And here it is in a nut shell.  Still new to the town, not many friends, so some depression had set in... then my Dad passed away in November, so I worry for my mom all the time.
I worry for all my kids.  All the time. And that will never end.
I was going to open another Daycare, then I wasn't, then I was, then I wasn't.... well you get the gist of THAT scenario.  While at the table making plans to open a center the phone rings, it is YHS asking me to come for an interview.  I go, get the job (JOB OF MY DREAMS btw) and of course I am nervous for the entire month after he hires me before I start.
Then I have one sister that couldnt'sell her house and she has had health issues for years and so has her husband.  Then my other sisters husband had to have heart surgery.
Then my mom started  having mini strokes... which I took her to the doctor and over a course of the summer, actually 5 months, we got her a home health nurse and got her blood pressure down, but I was trying to go up there for 2 days a week to take care of her and help her with shopping and laundry. 
Then she just had a pace maker put in. I just worry for her all the time!! 
THEN,  Matthew had a wreck, and it wasn't a kind wreck.  It was a mean- in your face- type of wreck that totalled his car in the parking lot of his school!  And he had a nice car.  Body shop stopped the estimate at $13,000!  Yes in the parking lot where he was doing the normal speed, but the driver of the other car was clocked at doing 45mph.  It was on tape and the cops and the insurance guy told me the estimated speed.  Can you say T-BONE?  Then say Hospital, and minor concussion!  So I guess I can see why I might have gotten sick.  And I sure hope I am on the road to recovery cause I almost had to put myself out of misery a couple of times!  Oi vay! 

But I do have to put in a side note that my husband has been with me through all of this and loves me very much and for him.... I am so lucky and greatful!