December 28, 2019

Midlife has something to say.... are you listening?

''I think midlife is when the universe gently places her hands upon your shoulders, pulls you close, and whispers in your ear:

I’m not screwing around. 
It’s time. 

All of this pretending and performing – these coping mechanisms that you’ve developed to protect yourself from feeling inadequate and getting hurt – has to go.

Your armor is preventing you from growing into your gifts. I understand that you needed these protections when you were small. I understand that you believed your armor could help you secure all of the things you needed to feel worthy of love and belonging, but you’re still searching and you’re more lost than ever.

Time is growing short. There are unexplored adventures ahead of you. You can’t live the rest of your life worried about what other people think. You were born worthy of love and belonging. Courage and daring are coursing through you. You were made to live and love with your whole heart. It’s time to show up and be seen.”

December 25, 2019

Matthews blanket

I don’t sew.  It’s a known fact.  I can hot glue gun stuff all day long, but I can’t sew.  Then... I decided  to make a t-shirt blanket for Matthew.  it's official.. I have lost my mind.

I worked on this labor of love for three weeks during all my free time and watch lots of youtube videos.  My iron kept turning off and I had to run to hobby lobby 3 times to get forgotten things.  I watched an entire season of Dawson's Creek making this.  Stepped on several needles, lost my mind on threading the bobbins and went through 3 cutting razors!

I had to tear out 4 seams and at one point I had the king size blanket on the floor trying to figure out how to get the batting situated.  It was an adventure... and it in NO WAY looks great... but from far away it will pass as "nice" & it is really comfy.  I even sewed  a small pocket on the inside for his remote.

Hopefully, the thought behind it means more the it's worth. and he seemed happy when he opened it.... plus I got a big hug,so that's considered a win right?!  And his big smile made all those evenings sewing until 3 a.m. worth it.

However... I am still so glad that project is over, and never again will I make another one with 30, 12X12 squares!  It would fit a King sizes bed.



December 23, 2019

Our Staff Christmas Party 2019 Is in the books!


For the Love of GOD.... let me watch netflix!

Man!!!!!   I have done a lot of work over the last month!!!

       .... really, its been since July when we broke ground on the new building.

From catching them building the building completely backwards, to having to open with a temporary occupancy... It's been a whirlwind!  From breaking ground to open was 4 months!   Ordering equipment, arranging classrooms, enrolling kids.... that alone is enough, but then.....

Halloween and all the preparing and decorating and the parties.
Thanksgiving where we do the meal for the parents  This year we had 70 parents come.
Then Christmas!  At Daycare, Christmas is not only putting up the trees and getting the lobby all decorating but it's contests, Christmas parties, pajama days, movie days....
Then there is the every day running a business thing... 27 staff, 130 kids... throw in a visit from DHS!!  ... because, why not!?!

I have done all the shopping and decorating for my house!   I did all the wrapping, and have made all the preparation for Christmas eve!  I even made three presents... one of which took me 3 weeks to complete!

And did I mention Dennis has been sitting in his chair for the last month nursing a pulled groin and a hurt back!  And he keeps telling me I need to slow down cause I am working too hard.

WHO THE ?????  will do all this if I don't?  Don't be an dumbass Dennis!  There are deadlines to meet!!  You can't wait to get stuff ready for Christmas  AFTER CHRISTMAS! lol

I keep thinking I have to undecorate in about 1 week and it feels like I just put it up!  Thanksgiving being a week late is very noticeable!!!  I have hardly got to enjoy any of it being so busy or hiding off in my room cause Dennis has been hold up in his chair... watching dumb shows!! (Plus my house looks so good!!)  Next year I am doing a tree in my bedroom so at least I can enjoy a tree in there! and it will keep me in the Christmas spirit when I am wrapping presents on my bed and watching Christmas movies.

Ahhh, I complain about being busy but the truth is... Dennis wants me to retire in like 5 years and most likely..... I won't.  I can't stand NOT to be busy.  and weekends are so boring half the time I can't wait to get back to the land of the living!   I like being busy and feeling needed and I really like earning money! (Cause I like to spend it!)

But still... I do like an occasional day to slow down and binge watch netflix and eat chocolate.